Monday, May 29, 2017

My Experience With A Cult

This month marks my one year anniversary of escaping a cult. That's right. Your's truly got suckered into joining what I now know to be a cult but at the time thought was a really cool semi-religious/philosophical movement. I will be as blunt and upfront as possible. I make no excuses. I was seduced into joining mostly because I ignored early warning signals.

Let me give you some back story. As a child I loved reading about Greek mythology. I remember my very first exposure to the Greek myths. I was enrolled in a version of daycare that was run by my then church. I can't remember how old I was but I was old enough to read. I remember going through the bookcase and found one odd book. The bookcase was filled with Christian books for kids, stories of Noah, the garden of Eden, the life of Jesus, even bibles with pictures for kids. That one odd book I discovered was about Greek mythology. After reading I formed the opinion that Greek mythology was way cooler than the Christian stories that adults told me. I was so very much interested in it that I began telling other kids about it. That's when trouble started. One of the adults heard me talking about other gods while holding the book. She yanked it out of my hand, swatted me on the butt, and forced me into a corner of the room. I became angry and said something, not sure what, but she then yanked me into the bathroom and washed my mouth out with that "pink lotion" liquid soap that used to found in nearly every public restroom. I think I threw up afterward. Her treatment (abuse) of my solidified my contrarian ways. I loved Greek mythology and was not going to let this woman stop me from enjoying it. From that time onward every time I went to the library I checked out books on Greek mythology. 

Fast forward to about a year and half ago. I'm online and am reading some old message boards. One post caught my eye. It was a woman communicating to some guy and telling him that the ancient Greek traditional "pagan" religion is not dead and never actually died out at all. She the provided a means of contacting another man who could be his teacher if interested. I was intrigued.

Now, my warning bell did alarm. The claim that the ancient Greek traditional religion survived the coming of Christianity sounded like pure hogwash to me. I've heard similar tales coming from Wiccans and other Neopagans, with all such claims being incredibly easy to debunk. However, I was curious enough to give it a shot. I emailed the man and introduced myself. Thus began my first contact with what turned out to be a cult and it's leader. 

I won't provide details or identify this man. I will state that my initial exchanges with the man were pleasant and rather fascinating. I asked him if it was true that the ancient Greek religion survived the coming of Christianity and he said yes and no, that the temple, public, and private worship were obliterated but that one single piece survived. That piece was one of the mystery religions that was able to survive because it morphed into more of a philosophical movement that was passed down through the centuries to chosen individuals. He the advised me that what has survived was the mysteries of Orpheus, or Orphism. I was aware of Orpheus due to my love of Greek mythology. 

For those who don't know, Orpheus was a demigod, the son of a King and one of the Muses. He was considered to be the best musician and poet. His music was so powerful that it charmed all of creation. His basic story goes as follows;

Orpheus was married to Eurydice. Eurydice ends up dying in some fashion, either while trying to flee being raped by a god or else being bit by a venomous serpent. Orpheus was so grieved that he took up his lyre and traveled down to the Underworld in order to retrieve his dead wife. Once there, he was able to secure an audience with king and queen of the dead, Hades and Persephone. He played such beautiful music and sang such beautiful songs that Persephone's cold heart melted and she began crying. Seeing her tears, Hades granted Orpheus' request of having his wife back from the dead as long he was able to obey one simple rule. The rule was that Eurydice would walk behind Orpheus and that at no time should he ever turn around to look at her until they were both back on the surface of the earth once more. Of course, this turned out to be a rule that Orpheus simply could not stop himself from breaking. He was so paranoid that he had been tricked that he eventually turned around to check if his wife was truly behind him. He saw the surprised and saddened look on her face as she was yanked back down into the Underworld. He begged for another audience with Hades but was declined. Orpheus returned to the world depressed. He wandered the earth spreading secret information about the gods and their proper worship. This would become the very first mystery religion, the Orphic mysteries. Eventually Orpheus was attacked by a group of Maenads (female worshipers of Dionysus) who decapitated him using their bare hands. His head was flung into a river and magically continued singing for a great time until the gods demanded it be silent.

This man said that what survived Christianity was this mystery religion, the teachings of Orpheus. He offered an invitation to become his student. I accepted. I began weekly sessions with him over Skype. The sessions were originally supposed to be just 45 minutes but usually lasted around 3 hours. I quickly became hooked. 

Now, I'm an intelligent man. I asked for evidence. I was provided such. He quoted me sayings from philosophers and great thinkers from 1100-1300 AD which to my amazement did seem to suggest they were alluding to the fact that the Greek worship of the old gods never truly died out. The temples were destroyed. The sacrifices and rituals stopped. Idols were smashed. But the teachers continued on disguised as philosophy. 

The teachings were of thus:

- The knowledge and worship of the 12 Olympians (Zeus, Hera, Poseidon, Demeter, Athena, Ares, Apollo, Artemis, Hermes, Aphrodite, Hephaestus and Hestia) Note: In some versions of the 12 Olympians, Dionysus is listed as a member with the belief that Hestia gave up her throne for him. I was taught this was a false belief that was invented by Robert Graves. A god can not give up his/her throne. Dionysus, though an important figure, is not one of the 12 Olympians. Though other gods exist, only the great 12 Olympians are worshiped. 

-What the gods are. (This is completely different from what most people are led to believe. Think more along the lines of energy.)

-The gods have their own symbols, their own colors, their own numbers, their own favorite offerings. (This is very similar to what is found in African Traditional Religions).

-The Orphic Hymns are like "the bible" of the religion. They teach how to properly make offerings to the gods as well as what they like.

-The myths should not be taken literally. They are all meant to be viewed symbolically and allegorically. They are also just the opinions of the individual story-tellers. The myths often portray the gods as being human-like and imperfect. In reality the gods are perfect beings. 

-How to pronounce the names of the gods. (Modern English pronunciation of the names of the gods is completely incorrect. Take Zeus for example. Most English-speaking people pronounce it as "Zoos". This is incorrect. It's actually pronounced, "Zefs", with an "f" sound before the final "s". I will give the correct pronunciation below:

Zeus - "Zefs"
Hera - "E-rah" 
Poseidon - "Poe-see-thon"
Demeter - "Day-May-Tayr"
Athena - "Aht-hay-nah"
Ares - "Ah-rays"
Apollo - "Ah-pohl-on"
Artemis - "Ar-tay-mees"
Hermes - "Air-mees"
Aphrodite - "Ah-fro-the-tee"
Hephaestus - "Ee-fess-tohs"
Hestia - "Es-tee-ah"


- The 12 Olympians are worshiped in pairs, never singularly. There were 7 pairs. The two gods are wed, as in actually married, despite what the myths may say. Those pairs are:

Zeus-Hera
Poseidon-Demeter
Heres-Athena
Apollo-Artemis
Ares-Aphrodite
Hephaestus-Hestia
***Hermes-Aphrodite (A very special pair, a hermaphrodite.)

- We are all "children of the gods" so to speak. Each of us has both mortal and divine parents. For example, my divine parents were Aphrodite and Ares. (This concept is very similar to the view found in African Traditional Religions.) A person's divine parents will be one of the pairs listed above. To uncover your pair requires self-knowledge and introspection. 

- That we constantly die and are reincarnated.

- That Zeus loved us so that he sent his son Dionysus to free us from the constant cycle of birth-death-rebirth and suffering. (This is not copying from Christianity! This belief is older than Christianity. In Greek mythology, specifically the Orphic creation myths, humans were created after Dionysus was murdered and his remains were incorporated into what would become human beings. Thus humans are part-divine and have the potential of becoming gods.)

- How to become gods, our proper place in the Universe. 

So this is the information that I feel comfortable sharing at this time. I was truly fascinated with this material. The Orphic Hymns were like the bible of this religion. A completed Orphic creation myth has been compiled from sources. Certain rituals have been lost but the hymns themselves tell of how to worship the gods and what to offer them. 

So I fell for this line and sinker. Now, is this true? I'm still torn. Part of me thinks it's bull shit. Part of me thinks it may actually be true and just that I stumbled upon a complete perverted asshole who attempted to hijack it for his own sexual satisfaction. On to more warning signals....

On my very first Skype session, the first time this mans saw me and I saw him, he said to me (paraphrased):

"Well, I much prefer to take on young men as students, about 18-19 years old. However, you look very good for your age. You are a very attractive man. You definitely don't look your age. I would say you look like you are in your mid to late 20s."

What? What does my age have to do with becoming a student? Why did he add on the compliments? 

I soon began to uncover the reasons. He was in his mid 60s. He was gay. He was HIV positive. He preferred young men about 18-19 for sex partners. He had at least one past student as a lover. This past student had learning disabilities. This man complained on having to spend money on this boy in order to keep his affections. Ultimately the boy decided he wanted to nothing to do with this creep but the man still wants him back and is still trying to get him back. 

This man also dropped the following (paraphrased):

"Let me put it this way. I would definitely have sex with a man older than 18-19. Take you for example, I would enjoy having sex with you. It's just that I would not be able to have romantic feelings toward you. I really only develop romantic feelings for younger men. I would even have sex with a man my age."

I knew these were major red flags. So I was definitely not naive. I recognized this as troubling signs and kept a mental note of them. 

This man who now called himself my teacher claimed that he was brought into the religion after meeting another man on chat. The other man was an elderly man, a native of Greece, who was speaking out against Wiccans and other Neopagans who were claiming to be resurrecting the ancient Greek religion and worshiping the Greek gods. This elderly man was basically telling these people to leave it alone, that the Greek religion was not dead but has survived as philosophical teachings. So my teacher decided to contact the man and actually went to Greece. He was taken into the community and introduced to the elders. They were all normal people who knew fascinating information. 

My days with this cult were numbered. It seems I asked too many questions and have too many quaint ideas, such as that one should be given the freedom to form opinions that differ than your own. It appears that my teacher did not believe in such. We began to argue or petty things. He insisted that only his opinions counted and that I had to admit I was wrong even though my opinion could be backed up with actual evidence. Eventually it got to the point where he even demanded that I believe the gods were real beings, as if having actual bodies similar to humans. That's when the shit hit the fan because I refuse to accept such strict absurdities. My religious and spiritual beliefs demand far more freedom of movement. I tried to explain my belief, that ultimately there is only divinity and that people have just given different names to such across cultures throughout time but he would have nothing to do with it and wasn't interested. When I flat out refused to accept that the Greek gods have bodies like humans he basically said we came to an impasse and that he could no longer be my teacher, that I wasn't right for this religion. I politely informed him that his HIV medication may be effecting his thought processes, a known side-effect of certain medication, and he said he agreed to a point. Previously he had displayed memory problems and began missing and showing up late to scheduled class times, not to mention becoming irate and angry over the most inconsequential things. I also told him to leave 18-19 year old boys alone, that they preferred people their own age, and that yes, the only reason why one would give a 60+ year old man the time of day is if said man had money they were willing to spend on them, that such was the cost of having a young boyfriend. I also told him that an HIV positive person should never have sex with such a young person. That seemed to really piss him off. LOL 

So there you have it. I have experience with a cult. Hopefully, it will be the last experience with a cult that I ever have. If in the future you should happen upon a group that espouses some of the same info that I wrote about in this blog, be warned. Things may not be what they first appear. I'm still split on whether there is any truth to this at all or if this creep just made up everything. 






Saturday, May 27, 2017

Actor/Comedian Jamie Foxx Wears "Come To Me" Cologne!

On Thursday's (5/25/17) episode of Live with Kelly and Ryan, actor/comedian Jamie Foxx was asked by Kelly what cologne he was wearing. He answered, "It's called Come To Me".  Hmm....is Jamie Foxx a believer or possibly a practitioner?

For those who may not know, "Come To Me" is a hoodoo formula for various spiritual products, such as, oils, incense, sachet powder, bath and floor wash, as well as cologne, that is designed to draw a new lover to you. Come To Me is very good to use on a specific person you would like to draw near to you for love or sex.

Friday, May 26, 2017

Florida Water Warning!

So I'm lighting a lamp for a client and had rinsed my hands with Florida Water to cleanse them before starting. I struck a match and was lighting the wick when my entire right hand became engulfed with flames. It scared the shit out of me! Luckily, there was no burns as I quickly shook out the flames. Let this be a warning to readers. Anything with alcohol is flammable and can post a fire risk!

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

2 Year Anniversary Of Weight Loss Surgery

I apologize for this break in blogging. I've been extremely busy with life stuff these past weeks. I hit another milestone as well, my two year anniversary of my weight loss surgery on May 13.

I am still completely shocked that a mere two years ago I was almost 400 lbs, had sleep apnea, borderline diabetes and high blood pressure, and had pretty much accepted that I was not long for this earth. My weight loss surgery truly saved my life.

For my readers who don't know the story, I went to Tijuana to have my procedure. I had the gastric sleeve surgery. About 80% of my stomach was removed. A normal stomach is about the size of a football. My new stomach is the size of a banana. There is a hunger hormone called ghrelin that is produced by the stomach. Since 80% of my stomach is gone, I therefore don't experience true hunger like I did pre-surgery. I do not feel I'm dieting or starving at all and even though I'm eating far less than what most people eat. The reason for this is that when the stomach is full it sends signals to the brain which are then interpreted as being satiated. So my new stomach does this as well but off of a very small portion of food. Pre-surgery I could eat an entire large pizza, salad, order of bread sticks, and dessert as one meal. Post-surgery I can eat one slice of pizza and may not even be able to eat the entire slice, depending upon how thick the crust is!



I decided to go out of the country because in my area the surgery runs around 20k and is usually not covered by insurance. I researched it for a year before my surgery and chose my surgeon in Tijuana and paid $4,500 for the surgery.

So let me give a break down of my stats:

Highest Recorded Weight: 388 lbs (There were times I was over 400. I believe 412 was the highest I have ever been. However, at the time that I chose to have the surgery I was 388 lbs.)
Weight On Day Of Surgery: 350 lbs
Current Weight: 174 lbs
Former Shirt Size: 4XL
Current Shirt Size: Medium
Former Pant Size: 48
Current Pant Size: 32
Former BMI: 52.6 (Morbid Obesity)
Current BMI: 23.6 (Normal Weight)
Total Weight Loss: 214 lbs

The goal weight I set for myself is 170 lbs. A couple of months ago I got down to 171 lbs and was so very close to achieving my goal weight. However, I messed up and started eating garbage again. I ended up gaining 3 lbs. I'm now back on track.

Another error I made was I stopped focusing on protein. I'm supposed to get 60-80 grams of protein a day. Well, when I was eating crap there were days where I didn't get any protein. My average for months was probably around 20 grams of protein a day. As a result of my mistake I began to shed hair. So my hair is thinning. I've returned back to the protein so hopefully I will be able to reverse this. If you don't get enough protein your hair and nails will suffer.

Since my surgery I've had several people tell me that I was the inspiration for them looking into or deciding to get the same or a similar surgery as well. I am very pleased that I've been an inspiration to people. If any of my readers are in a similar situation to me, facing morbid obesity, then I would strongly recommend you look into getting the surgery. It will literally change your life in ways you never even dreamed possible.

Psychologically, I'm still adapting to the changes. I still have some issues with accepting the new me. I still have a bit of body dysmorphia, meaning that I still perceive myself to be the same fat person I was before surgery. I also have some issues with women and men being sexually attracted to me. I didn't get anywhere near the level of attention I now get from people and I feel I can be too awkward when hit on. Hopefully in time I will adapt and be able to embrace the new me and live my life to the fullest.

I have not yet had plastic surgery to remove the excess skin. I do have excess skin, mainly on my stomach, some on the chest, and some on the thighs. I will be honest to admit that I dread the surgery because unlike the weight loss surgery, plastic surgery is a very invasive surgery and can take a few months to heal. However, I know that to complete this metamorphosis that I will have to suck it up, invoke courage, and see this journey through.

My only regret is that I did not have the surgery sooner. I'm also a bit ticked off. This surgery has been around since the 1980s but really wasn't used on morbidly obese people until around 2007. If I would have had this surgery in my teens or 20s then my life would have been a lot better, in my opinion.

My Before Pictures:

Passport Photo - March 2015

December 2014

I'm the blob behind the boy.

Day of Surgery - May 13, 2015

My After Pictures:









So I will end with this. Do not let fear prevent you from being the person you were meant to be! Be courageous and dare to embrace change. 

Related blog entries:



For those who are curious about just how much I can eat after surgery, here are two pictures of a standard-size bowl of Frito pie. I can eat about half of a bowl of food at one time. 

Before Eating

Full!

If I continue to eat past the point of being full I will vomit. So I quickly learned to stop eating as soon as I felt full. Again, I do not feel true hunger, nor do I feel that I'm depriving myself. This tiny amount of food produces the same sensation in me as if I just got through eating Thanksgiving dinner. So I feel completely satiated. I do not cheat or try to eat every couple of hours. I eat 3 meals a day and some days I eat some snacks as well. I can even eat fast food. I can eat a McDonald's cheeseburger in one sitting (either no fries or just a few), 1-2 tacos (depending upon how long it's been since I've last eaten), and one slice of pizza (depending upon size of crust). I can eat a ton of salad and stuff like chips, crackers, and popcorn. These types of food are called "slider foods", because they literally slide right on through your stomach, meaning you can eat a very large portion. I've been able to eat a large bucket of popcorn at the movies, for example. Of course, these "slider foods" are no-nos and can cause weight gain if not kept in check.


Saturday, May 6, 2017

Beginners Guide To Sex Magic



Sex magic....what is it?

I know the first time I heard of sex magic I automatically entertained thoughts and visualizations of naked bodies of both sexes undulating and penetrating orifices indiscriminately. I guess that's just my dirty mind at work. In reality, sex magic is a very primitive and powerful way of raising energy in order to manifest your desires. The purpose of this blog entry will be to explain the very basics for would-be practitioners.

Sex magic can be practiced alone or with a partner. Beginners should start off doing it alone and then move toward practicing with a partner who is comfortable with such and is willing to aid you in your endeavor. The following is just a guide for newbies. Feel free to reject anything that you personally don't feel comfortable doing or anything that you feel is not applicable or right for your situation.

1. Define the goal, purpose, or clarify the desire. You need to know what it is you want to manifest prior to performing sex magic.

2. Cleanse the area. I like to perform a simple cleansing of the area in which sex magic will be performed. Smudging and burning incense are good, simple ways of achieving such.

3. Cleanse yourself. Take a spiritual bath or perform a simple cleansing on yourself to wipe away any negative energies that you may have picked up over the course of your daily life.

4. Set the mood/atmosphere. Dim the lights or light candles. Burn incense if you prefer. If you do not live alone then make sure the doors are locked or that you have privacy. If you would like to have soft music playing in the background then such is fine. Just make sure it isn't too loud or isn't of the type that may cause you to break your focus or concentration. Classical music may be best. Any music that inspires eroticism would be good. Probably not wise to play your favorite hits lest you start singing along or really getting into the song instead of your magic. If you are burning candles then you can go ahead and fix candles for your magical purpose, such as using proper color, marked/carved, and dressed with proper corresponding condition oil. Otherwise, you can just burn any candle of any color. Your incense can also be chosen by purpose as well or just use whatever incense your prefer.

5. Wear whatever attire you prefer or nothing at all. It all depends on what turns you on. If you feel that a certain article of clothing or even color of clothing feels good on your body or stimulates your passion and power, then by all means wear it. Otherwise get butt naked!

6. Begin masturbating. Start of slow and build to a climax but do not allow yourself to actually climax. For men, this is called "edging". You can begin your self-stimulation in the normal means but make sure that you ultimately reach the point of full body stimulation. Women are just naturally better at achieving this because society permits women to be sensual. Unfortunately, society tends to label male sensuality as being "too feminine" or relating it to homosexuality. Since men tend to focus on the genitals its important for men to explore and stimulate their entire body. Embrace your sensual side. Rub and caress your skin. Stimulate areas you may have not even considered touching before during masturbation, such as your feet, arm pits, back, etc. A full body experience is needed. It is also important for this that you do not keep track of time. You need to lose yourself in your ecstasy. Repeatedly allow your pleasure to build to the point of climax/ejaculation but do not allow your self to achieve such. Hold off and start slow again and build until your reach the same level of stimulation. While doing this you will visualize what it is you would manifest into reality, specifically the end result. So for example, if I wanted to have sex with a particular woman then I would visualize having sex with this woman. I would not visualize how this all came about and what would lead us to sleeping together. That part is out of my hands. Only focus on the end result.

7. When you do finally climax/ejaculate/orgasm it should be extremely powerful and should come during a moment of exceptionally clear visualization of the desire that is to be manifested. Now, 9 times out of 10 this will go smoothly. You can then bask in the afterglow and go to sleep if you want. I prefer to go to sleep as I feel that this pushes the desire deeper down into the subconscious mind. I also feel that it gives a better closure to the ritual. If you prefer not to got to sleep then you can then get up and quietly clean up and then move on with your day to day life as normal.

Now, I've read online that one shouldn't use sex magic in matters of love. For example, some would say not to use sex magic to draw a specific person to you because it will not work on them but it would cause you to grow obsessed with such person. I can see this logic but don't necessarily agree with it entirely. I believe that if the person you would like to take as your lover has given you signs that they are mutually attracted to you then you should totally use this method. However, if this is a stranger who doesn't even know you exist then you probably aren't going to see good results with this method simply because most people don't just jump into bed with complete strangers. Sure, you might get lucky every now an then but in the long run it's not going to be a good tactic or technique. Now, if you are using sex magic to reconcile or draw back a lover, or to even influence a lover, then you should be perfectly okay using this method.

Another thing readers should be aware is that sexual fluids gathered from a sex magic rite are extremely powerful. You can use such to dress candles, amulets or talismans, mojo bags, etc., and especially if you are doing other forms of magic to back up your sex magic.

Just remember that sex magic can be used for anything. It's not just good for love or romance. It's a tool or technique that can be used to achieve and manifest your desires.

If you chose to perform sex magic with a partner or even group of people then please be aware that you will need to trust your partner(s) as having the same desire or outcome. For example, if your partner has voiced their opinion and it is contrary to your desire then I would not recommend you work with them in a sex magic rite because their energy is going to counter-act your own. It's best to have a partner who either holds the same desire as yourself or at least is of an opinion that is not against the manifestation of your desire. If you prefer, your partner can be kept in the dark as to the purpose of the rite. This way the partner will act to help build sexual energy while not actively working to manifest it.

Certain individuals, such as Aliester Crowley, advocated that same-sex partners produced the most powerful sex magic. I believe this stems from homosexuality being "forbidden". It's up to you on whether or not you chose to accept this as part of your reality. I would venture to state that if you have same-sex sexual desires that you have not acted on before then perhaps it could be a very powerful experience for you as you would be tapping into something you haven't tried before. However, if you have a natural repulsion to such then I fear any same-sex rite could be detrimental toward the manifestation of your desires. Know yourself and your limits.





My Favorite Hunger Episodes

The Hunger was a horror anthology series that aired on Showtime from 1997 through 2000. The second season was hosted by David Bowie. The series dealt with many paranormal and supernatural themes, usually involving human desires and the consequences of such. Below are some of my favorite episodes from the series. Word of warning, many of these episodes contain nudity and adult situations.

Bridal Suite - When couples check in to a bed and breakfast the husband often disappears.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgJH4IQwv8o

The Face of Helene Bournouw - A string of remarkable individuals kill themselves after meeting an extremely seductive woman.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=409VSmpj3AE

Clarimonde - A new priest has his faith tested by a beautiful seductress who is not what she appears to be.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jc1gTk4m9rc

Nunc Dimittis - A dying man finds a male prostitute to take his place serving a very special princess.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXcl9h3PW7U

Week Woman - A man marries a lesbian to avoid being deported. He soon discovers a secret about her, one that transforms her into his ideal mate.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B46udeTph2A

The Diarist - This is my favorite episode of the series. A young witch is frustrated by the failures of her curses cast against the lover who left her for another woman.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aF1_1QRyZgY&t=580s

Bottle of Smoke - A woman finds a djinn in a bottle. Instead of granting wishes it can fulfill all of her sexual desires as long as she remembers never to break a very important rule.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mQEqL7Bp3n0

Brass - A man inherits a strange brass bed from his occultist father.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMGEsVWJ5-U

The Seductress - An older woman breaks off the sexual relationship she is having with a teenage boy leading to unforeseen supernatural repercussions.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSDNmyAcSBo









Reminder

I don't give free readings. I don't give free "spot checks" for your issues. I don't give a free diagnosis to determine if you are crossed up or cursed or if someone is working on you as well as determining the identity of said person. I won't call you for free and will not even consider doing any free work for you if you situation is not an emergency. I won't do any of these things because my time is valuable and you are not entitled to any free shit. Please don't waste my time by emailing me with your sob stories as to why you think you are unique and deserve special treatment.

You can pay to get a reading if you want a reading.

You can pay to get a reading to determine if you are crossed up or cursed.

You can pay to get a reading to possibly determine the identity of the person who is working against you.

You can pay me to perform conjure work for your non-emergency situation.

You can pay me for conjure coaching to learn how to do things for yourself.

Unfortunately, my life has been extremely hectic for the past few months and I'm frankly sick of opening my email and seeing dozens of emails from people who claim to read my blog but who think that they are entitled to free stuff. For instance, I opened two emails today from people who typed something similar to "I need to speak to you immediately about my situation", followed with a phone number, as if I would just pick up the phone and call you and spend an hour or more talking to you for free.

I give free consultations by email only. A free consultation is not the same thing as a free reading. Just like if you got a free consultation with an attorney he or she would not bust out the tarot cards or crystal ball but instead would talk to you about your case. Well, that's what a consultation is, discussing your case/situation.

I also got an email today from a woman who felt like she was entitled for me to give her a free reading to determine if she was cursed as well as tell her who did it. When I responded to her that I don't give free readings she responded rudely back as if it was a crime to ask to be compensated for your time and gifts. If people only knew what bull shit workers have to put up with. LOL